there is no wonderland

"I can not ...." she whispered softly, standing completely frozen and concentrated to breathe out. Breathing. Dizziness.
 "I can not give up now, not now and never again." he said and looked at her anxiously. 
She stared at the rain that gathered at your feet in a puddle. When he wanted to take her hands, she shrugged and opened her mouth: "You are everything to me, but ... I ... I ..."

Chapter VI - There is no wonderland.